..been dying to be in CEBU..gosh gosh..so excited..i can't almost sleep..arg!!..4 days to go na lng at nasa CEbu na kami..weewwwwww..thanks for that fieldtrip "thing"..:)..
eto..nagreresearch sa hotel na tutulogan and sa places na pupuntahan..
Monday is the day!!!!!!!!!!....
Drunk
A sip of rh for a change. Feeling the intensity as it overruled my consciousness. 1bot of stallion..2..3..4..then things became so blurred..my cheeks were burning sooo hot..my mind was trying to catch all the things they said.. It’s not functioning right. .I burped. .I could feel the food as my stomach rejects it.. Nd then I puked. My world was spinning lightly.. I could not do this alone.. Could not go home.. That was what I called drink till you drop.coz im fucking messy..the horse hit me so hard..in that very moment..passing out was such a no—-no—. My body reacted the other way..well, thanks to the person who accompanied me in going home..:)
What's the best remedy?
when I own something..I want it to be FULLY mine..I’m selfish,o yeah!!..and I had him tied up..I want his attention—all the time—..knowing his actions is a MUST..I set the rules..he follows it..the u can do,u can’t do this thing..
..—-there must be really something wrong with me..——????
..—-there must be really something wrong with me..——????
comatose
..Wanting my system down…my eyes are then tightly closed…it’s been so quiet…it’s already late and I needed to sleep! Unrecognizable sounds then started to exist…It’s deafening my senses…I can’t concentrate…I could hear my heart beat…I’m sleeping yet why am I hearing this things??..It’s like my soul has been detached from my body…what’s happening??…my heart beats faster and faster like I was being followed by something I don’t know…arg!!!!….
How to let go of someone you really love..
1.Do not resist the pain.When you are heartbroken, the first thing you want to do is run away from the pain and suppress it with self-destructive habits such as drinking alcohol, using drugs, etc. to numb yourself. But these do not really help. The only thing it does is keep the feelings buried inside of you which will hurt you more in the long run. Address the situation by welcoming the hurt feelings as part of being human. It is hard to do this step especially when you feel so vulnerable, but it is an important step in healing yourself. Once the purpose is done, the pain will leave and you will be free.
2.Swallow the truth. Constantly denying the fact that the person you love will stay just by your own sheer desire is blind thinking. The old saying, “The truth will set you free”, will always hold true. Make peace with yourself by acknowledging that the person you love cannot love you back and that is a truth you need to accept.
3.Make a firm decision to move on. In order to let go of someone you really love, you must take the first step to healing. No other person can do that for you. If you really want to get over your lost love, stop yourself from dwelling in the past. Live in the present the best way you can and see yourself having a better future with someone who is really meant for you.
4.Get rid of the things that remind you of the other person. These include all the gifts, letters, pictures, etc. that you received from him/her. The more detached you are with the things that have something to do with the other person, the faster it is for you to let go.
5.Forgive the other person and yourself. In life, we take risks, and one of that is in the area of love. If you find yourself loving someone who cannot love you back, don’t punish yourself by holding on to the misery forever. Refrain from blaming and be forgiving. It’s not your fault that the love relationship didn’t work out. Sometimes things just don’t happen the way you want them to be. You still have better things in store for you.
6.Give yourself time to heal. The bible says there is always time for everything. Do not rush into letting go of someone you love because you are presently hurt and you want to get rid of the feeling right away. This causes more scarring. Instead, allow time to heal you. Depending on the depth of your feelings and your attachment, it could take months or even years. Once you have the desire and faith to really move on, the powers of the universe will help you achieve that goal. Be patient and see the results in time.
2.Swallow the truth. Constantly denying the fact that the person you love will stay just by your own sheer desire is blind thinking. The old saying, “The truth will set you free”, will always hold true. Make peace with yourself by acknowledging that the person you love cannot love you back and that is a truth you need to accept.
3.Make a firm decision to move on. In order to let go of someone you really love, you must take the first step to healing. No other person can do that for you. If you really want to get over your lost love, stop yourself from dwelling in the past. Live in the present the best way you can and see yourself having a better future with someone who is really meant for you.
4.Get rid of the things that remind you of the other person. These include all the gifts, letters, pictures, etc. that you received from him/her. The more detached you are with the things that have something to do with the other person, the faster it is for you to let go.
5.Forgive the other person and yourself. In life, we take risks, and one of that is in the area of love. If you find yourself loving someone who cannot love you back, don’t punish yourself by holding on to the misery forever. Refrain from blaming and be forgiving. It’s not your fault that the love relationship didn’t work out. Sometimes things just don’t happen the way you want them to be. You still have better things in store for you.
6.Give yourself time to heal. The bible says there is always time for everything. Do not rush into letting go of someone you love because you are presently hurt and you want to get rid of the feeling right away. This causes more scarring. Instead, allow time to heal you. Depending on the depth of your feelings and your attachment, it could take months or even years. Once you have the desire and faith to really move on, the powers of the universe will help you achieve that goal. Be patient and see the results in time.
My Life
Life… is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, unreturnable because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So, you’re stuck with mostly undefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there’s nothing else to eat while you’re watching the game. Sure, once is a while you get a peanut butter cup or an English toffee but it’s gone too fast and the taste is fleeting. In the end, you are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth-shattering nuts, which, if you are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper.
HIM
Before my boring state intertwined with my sanity..i found 3 call records in my phone..the first thing I thought was to delete it all but then I was curious of whose voice it was..Hearing the first word “hello”..I already guessed who it was..haha..it really did made me smile..something in that voice made me missed the guy..Laughing my heart out hearing him say hello for about 4times and then all of a sudden he laughed..he looked so stupid..hahah..Wew!..melting my heart away..I missed his seductive laugh..grrr..in short..I missed him..
